It feels hollow and empty wishing you a happy birthday as you're so far away from us now. It's the fifth one you've missed and it's still NOT FAIR.
This could have been so good, you could have so much, but you didn't want it.
Let's face it, who'd want to stay 19 forever? Being a teenager is rubbish. Being 24 was brilliant - I wish you could experience it. Maybe you'd feel differently. Maybe you wouldn't. I just wish I could give you the chance.