I visited my friend's grave today

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for the first time in 11 years.

Its 12 years ago on Thursday that he died. My world absolutely collapsed when he died and after visiting his grave on the 1 year anniversary, I completely broke down and couldn't bring myself to go again. In a way, in my head I figured that if I didn't see his grave then he wasn't really dead. Then year after year I chickened out of going and that turned into a tremendous amount of guilt for me.

But this year my mum mentioned it, so I decided I would go. Mothers Day was the day he was hit by a car (died 3 days later). On the mothers day just gone, I forced myself to walk across the road where it happened and I had a near panic attack standing at the edge. I was terrified and burst into tears but I did it. I felt I owed it to him to visit his grave. I felt I needed to do it as well, to get some kind of closure and some peace. I think I held up ok, had a few tears because its just so heart breaking to see what once was the most funny, friendly boy reduced to a headstone and a few plant pots.

I may go back there on thursday just to sit for a while. He was such a big part of my life growing up and even after all this time I still miss him so much.

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Knees, hope you are okay.

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what a brave step Knees, I hope it it well help you find peace.
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