Well, sorry for the self indulgent post, but I feel this is somewhat significant.
I'm sitting here in work and my colleague is here with her baby - the baby that was due the same time I would have been due mine. He was 2 weeks early, our due date would have been last week.
She was going to give me as much time as I needed before meeting up, but I wanted to get it over with and out of the way - and I can say that even though my heart is still a bit heavy, I'm ok. I got a bit emotional when I gave her the pressie, but I'm ok. Having her come to the office was better as well, as having other people around us kinda distracted from the situation a bit.
This was the final event to get out of the way, and now it's time to move on - enough now, it's enough (isn't that a line from Love Actually? LOL).
We'll be going to an IVF info evening at the end of November and then we will decide when to get started. We are financially not in an ideal situation, but hey, when is there ever an ideal situation.
Anyway, just needed to get write all that down, makes it a bit more real.
You sound like you have been through an awful lot, but you also sound like you have grown and are looking forward positively, so well done. Today will have been very significant for you and you found the strength within to face it and look to the future.
Be gentle with yourself : 0 ) x
<div align="center"><font size="2"><strong><font color="#cc99ff">"The more you Need the less you'll Get!"</font></strong></font></div>
Thank you sunnyjolls. Without repeating the whole looooong story, yep, I suppose I have had a bit of a rubbish year (or two).... 2 Ectopic Pregnancies within a year, resulting in the loss of both tubes, so now IVF is our only option to have a baby. A few other things going on as well, but hey, things can only get better, and we are very positive about it all really.
What doesn't kill ya makes ya stronger eh...
I have nt been on the bad i a long time but i just wanted to say well done! One of my best friends was pregnant while i was pregnant and it was so difficult. I was on my own when M/C started as hubbie was away for 3 weeks with work. Called my friend who is a doc and she had everything organised for me in terms of a scan and then talking to a consultant. I was needless to say very upset during this time and she said she felt awful being pregnant around me BUT you have to look at the positive, tonight i am going round to collect her baby from creche and baby sit her as my friend is on nights and her hubbie is away with work! I just hope if and when we have a baby her daughter is as kind a person as my friend!
Sorry, waffle there but fair play to you! And you re right about Love Actually and sometimes enough is enough, its onwards and upwards for us both
Hi vodkalover!
Haven't logged in in ages, but still checking in to see what's happening (not much, eh!). Thank you for your lovely post, and I'm very sorry to hear about your MC. You've been very brave, ringing up a friend who you knew was pregnant - it can't have been easy for you!
I hope you get your good news very soon!
As for me - I'm doing great! In a week's time I will be an auntie again, and in April or May we will be starting our first IVF cycle. I can't believe it's been nearly a year since I got that BFP we were so happy about only to have it taken away from us again. We've come a long way, and it's brought us even closer as husband and wife. I can't wait to get started with the IVF now, and with a bit of luck it'll work for us.
i will still be checking in, so do let me know how you get on, vodkalover!
take care