newly pregnant, scared, and can't stop crying..

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Hi there,

I'm a bit emotional, so please bear with me. I've just found out on Monday that I am pregnant. Although it was something I thought wanted, now it has actually happened, I am absolutely terrified.

I keep bursting in panicky tears, I can;t stop. I am scared to look in any baby books. I'm almost in denial. I had no idea it would be like this. I thought I'd be happy snd excited, but I'm not.

I feel disgusted and I don;t understand why. I have an awful mirror right opposite the shower, and now I can;t look at myself naked. I have started showering in dark, or the curtain wrapped round or my back to it...ridiculous I know.

I know many people are in worse of positions than me. For a start I'm 33, my boyfriend is very happy, excited and so supportive. My close family are the only ones who know and are all thrilled to bits. Its just me, I am terrified. I don;t know if I can do this. I'm scared of everything. Of my body changing, giving birth, being a mum...I guess just the unknown.

I know I sound like I'm overreacting, but this is how I honestly feel. My first reaction was that I wanted a termination...please don't judge me. It was a knee jerk reaction. I do still think that I do on low points, but I think it would be for the wrong reasons.

I have an appointment with the doctors tomorrow hopefully. Do you think they will be helpful? even finding out how far gone I am scares me. I'm just a bit of a mess and falling to bits. I am honestly trying to think positive. I do like babies, I am trying to think of all the fun, wonderful times I will have ahead of me. But it just comes down to the fact I can't associate pregnancy and me.

I just wonder if this is normal. I watch Jeremy Kyle

I see how badly others have it. Why is it they can do it and I am having a major wobble. Has anyone else felt like this? do you think it will get better, because I can't imagine how i can cope with for 9 months

Please help if you can.

Thank you x

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I think all of your reactions are perfectly normal.

Let me first say, congrats (I think!) and also that I have never been pregnant (tried but hasn't happened yet), but from my girlpals who have been this all sounds very, very familiar.

Of course it's a big shock, and you are naturally worried about anything and everything. Probably even if you were trying, you might not have expected it to happen. We usually spend so many years trying NOT to get pregnant, when we try it comes as a shock and we don't know what to do. That's what I felt like when trying!

I guess as it's your first pregnancy you'll be both terrified and thrilled. Don't forget your hormones are going absolutely doolally and you're bound to feel different things. And lurch from euphoria to tears in moments.

My best friend was absolutely convinced after 5 years of trying for this much longed for baby, that she couldn't go through with it, but she felt the baby kick and she was in-love with him from that moment on. She's had another one since then too. She was very concerned about losing her figure, losing her independence etc.

Again, I'm sorry I can't talk of my own experience, but I do know I'd be sh1tting myself too.

Wish you luck and I hope you find some support from your GP and feel able to talk to your partner about it. It's best to talk about these things and get it all out in the open. They might be able to recommend a counselling service for you.

I agree that it's probably the overwhelming, holy crap my whole life will change etc, feeling, but it doesn't have to be the end of things - just the start of a new chapter in your life.

Wish you well

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Thank you so much for your kind message. I felt a bit better reading that your friend felt convinced that she couldn;t go through with it until bub kicked. That's exactly how I feel so far, so I'm so glad it not just me.

I just found out today that one of my boyfriends best friends is expecting...well, his wife is. That also makes me feel a bit better too. It means someone close to us is just a bit ahead of me.

I was crying loads today, but right now I feel okish. Its just on and off like that. I have a docs appointment tomorrow, and the surgery booked me a double appointment. My boyfriend is coming along too, and he'll be able to tell her how I have been feeling too.

I really do appriciate your advice, so thank you so much for taking the time to reply to me.

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Cool, so you have some support from your group of friends. I'm glad your partner is going to the docs with you too. That's great. Sounds like it's all looking much more positive.

I'm happy that you found a bit of comfort in my words. And yes, I spoke to my best friend today, and she said she knows exactly how you feel and it does get better! She promises your hormones will settle down too - which will help with the mood swings.

No problem with the reply, maybe one day you'll be able to offer me advice

Fingers crossed!

Wish you well

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