Also I didn't know whether to put this in the health forum or here but as it's mainly work related I thought I'd put it here. Please let me know if you want me to move it?
To cut a long story short I was in an admin role for 3 years and then I applied for a higher role when the opportunity arose. I got this role and everything was going well. About 3 months into my training I got diagnosed with a chronic illness and had some time off that involved a short stay in hospital. Since coming back on department I couldn't cope with the training at all. I had no concentration, I kept making mistakes and my work was suffering. I went to my trainer and team leader who both were originally sympathetic, they said I could take it as slow as I needed etc. However, a month on and things are changing and I'm so very unhappy in work.
My manager is putting pressure on me to complete the training and my trainer, although she originally said she'd do anything she could to support me, is also now putting the pressure on and undermining me by broadcasting my mistakes to the department. I come into work exhausted because of my illness, I cry throughout the day in the loos or to a colleague and I go home so tired and ill that I'm asleep on the sofa after my tea. I just can't go on, I'm making myself ill and my illness worse. I don't know what to do. but my manager always told me that I need to speak to her when I'm feeling bad and I did originally but recently I feel that she is getting sick of it and just wants me to get on and complete the training. I've considered asking to be taken off training but I just know that this will not be looked kindly upon as they've been paying me an increased salary since I started and I would feel like a failure if I then went back onto admin and it would no doubt set tongues wagging - that aren't already. I've considered asking my GP to sign me off sick but know this will just cause more problems for me in the long run
My confidence and spirit are being crushed and I just need some wise words from anyone.
Thanks in advance.
